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Things To Do Before I Turn 50

  (also known as my "TA-DA" list as opposed to a "to do" list) It was my 49th birthday a few days ago and this got me thinking. Any birthday that ends with a zero always feels a bit like milestone or a landmark and, when I hit the big "five-o" in 2022, I don't want huge parties or celebrations but I would like to have ticked a few things off my low-effort bucket list.   I see these things as a way to improve my mental and physical health, plus a few slightly off-the-wall experiences that would make for great memories.  Start running again and include the following: Lead a C25K group again  Participate in parkrun EVERY week where possible  < ongoing (now parkrun Run Director too) Visit local landmarks whilst running  Train for a long race - building up from 5k > 10k > 10 miles > half marathon, with a couple of longer trail races mixed in  Lose a lot bit of weight Post more on Instagram or give the blog a bit of a reboot < ongoing Look at

Emotional Overload

September the 22nd will always be 
The day I want to ignore 
But I can't. 
It is a day I should celebrate 
The birth of my second born. 
The celebration of the life of 
A sensitive, clever young man, 
Yet it is a day that is burnt 
Into my heart  
For other reasons that involve grief. 
I cannot change this.
I cannot alter the past. 
I never want my grief to overshadow
A day of celebration, 
But I can see it in his eyes.
He doesn't want to mention that he knows
I am thinking of other times; 
Of another person. 
I want to cry but I need to be strong. 
Mum, I miss you more and more
And I know you understand

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Written for Workshop #36 of the Writing Workshop over at 'Sleep Is For the Weak'.  This week I used prompt #3 - "Taking stock.  Where are you now?"  I wanted to write this yesterday (it is six years since mum died) but couldn't find the words.  Today they just flowed.  Also linked to Mama Kat's Workshop for this week using prompt #2 - "A day you were sure you wouldn't get through."